
Kessie preens Clint's beak
Clint's stroke happened several years ago. He recovered, but a peculiar head tilt was an outward sign that damage remained. More than once, Clint will fall while climbing on the underside of the roof of his cage, dropping fifteen times his height to the ground. The result is always the same. Immediately, Clint looks around, daring anyone to notice his mistake. As he rights himself, Kessie his mate comes over and screams at him. Most of their communication is in body language, and Kessie is quite clear she wishes Clint would quit taking such risks.
The metal rings on their legs are open; those rings are called "open bands." Birds born in captivity have a closed band ring up over the feet and loosely on the leg. As the birds grow, the feet become so large that the band can no longer be removed without cutting. Clint and Kessie were both mitered conures were taken from the wild and brought to America. Capturing parrots that way for the pet bird trade has been illegal for decades; the best guess is that Clint and Kessie are in their thirties.
According to the avian medicine literature, mitered conures live to about thirty years of age.
There are small signs that Clint's neurological damage might be getting worse. He's started wandering far from the cage the two birds share. Clint's wandering upsets Kessie greatly. She follows him around, attempting to herd him back to where she can keep an eye on him.
Recently, she started screaming at him when he wouldn't go where she wanted him to. Clint was standing there, shaking a bit, trying to move his one leg, but his brain was having trouble starting that motion. Kessie shoved his leg with her beak, and he toddled back to the cage. Between that and his slight tremors, Clint would get a diagnosis of Parkinson-like syndrome, if not full Parkinson's. There are no good avian medicines for Parkinsons, so the vet sees no need for a more exact diagnosis.
Back on top of the cage, Clint and Kessie stand touching. Clint's head is down, still turned slightly, his eyes closed and his breathing slowed as he naps. Kessie turns her head so that one eye focuses on him. As she watches him sleep, there's a change. Birds aren't alpha predators, and so they rarely display weakness. The front of superiority is to convince predators someone else is easier prey and flock mates that their place in the literal pecking order is, if anything, too low. But ask Kessie watches Clint, her wings drop, her facial feathers aren't puffed out, and she loses the threat stance. Gently, she preens some of Clint's facial feathers for him, and he responds by grinding his beak in pleasure, not quite waking.
Slowly, Kessie turned and brought one eye to focus on me. Her posture didn't change, there was none of the "You humans are our servants, and we will bite you to keep you in your place." Her stance, her tail position, the way gravity tugs on her wings, the closed beak lowered, and the steady pupils that didn't pulse with excitement, all these things brought only one phrase to my mind, clear and unshakable.
"I'm going to lose him, aren't I?"
Was she really thinking that? I think so. I don't know that the parrots think of time as humans do, but they have a sense of future. "I'll get you a sunflower seed after the next commercial" produces screams if the commercial comes and goes without treats. "Rob will be back after two Barneys" results in excitement two days later when Barney disappears from the TV screen. I don't know if parrots understand death, but the budgies act surprised when a formerly sick bird returns from quarantine in the incubator. Is their concept closer to "flew away forever" than death. Do they think the other bird flew to that place all the other birds flew off to, someplace better, with plenty of food, water, and paper to tear to shreds (and no humans to throw all that work)? Or do they think in terms of a predator's eventual victory?
Perhaps I'm projecting onto Kessie. Her behavior reminds me of an elderly couple I know, where after the wife gives her husband his medicine for Parkinson's, she steps back and watches him. Her posture changes just like Kessie's did, and only the hardest of neurophysiologists would claim that I'm projecting thoughts of loss onto the woman.
Whatever Kessie is actually thinking and feeling, the moment is soon over. Clint wakes up and climbs up onto the underside of the cage top and walks upside down over that "times fifteen" drop. Kessie screams at him for doing this. Clint turns to look at her and almost loses his footing. A flurry of wings and beak and feet lets him grab back on. Her screams get even louder and more insistent. Her pupils turn first to pinpoints and then expand as far as possible, and she takes on a posture of authority, which Clint ignores.
Kessie hates it when Clint ignores her orders.